Why should I even care any more? She doesn't care about me. She never did like me. I loved her a lot. I did what I could. But it obviously wasn't good enough for her. I'M not good enough for her. We even fought every single week. Which I fucking hate. This one or two months is gonna be torture for me. But it's the holidays. I should enjoy it. Forget about her. Forget all the bad memories we had. Maybe even the good ones. I should just forget her. Just stick with my real friends. My PERMANENT ones. The ones who wouldn't hurt me. She probably won't be ready this. But I still have to admit, it was the best 1 years and 3 months with her. All the random, horny, awesome moments we had. All the fun. Gossiping and stuff. I'll miss that. I'll miss her. But it's time for the ones who'll be there for me. She may have been the person who meant the world to me. She was the only person who could cheer me easily. But it's time to let go. Bring on the real friends. BRING ON AWESOMENESS