I just want her back. I want to hug her one more time. I miss her. I love her. I really need her. But there isn't anything I can do. This is just the best holiday every huh. My arm is also very close to being fractured and I'm not giving a shit. Because you know what? I obviously deserve this pain. Because I'm not good enough for her or anybody. It's as close to suiciding as I can get